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So am sat drinking my cuppa tea after doing some house work when the neighbor walks in. We had seen each other twice already today first thing this morning due to my youngest mother of all loads of a meltdown. He had had a real bad day yesterday with hellicopters flying and circling around the area i live in. So i have had to up his medication but getting it into him and keeping him calm is not easy. Anyhow she had gone home and then we had popped on through after lunch to see the dogs as he is progressing real well in that area and fingers crossed later down the track i might get pets again.

But there was no further plan to see each other again today unless my youngest had another meltdown.

Well she bursts on in and asks me the most oddest question. "Do you remember what the colour of your plug looked like?" Well im thinking she is meaning the one in me kitchen sink. Perhaps the one in th bathroom maybe or even the the bath tub? So i replied black for the kitchen sink then said but of course i got silver one as well.

Her face look mortified and shocked. She then bursts out laughing and explains not the kitchen or bathroom sink plugs but for when your pregnant. Her daughter is due to drop any day now and was referring to my two pregnancies. So that pt me off my cuppa tea and the images going through my head. Well im thinking back and nope cant remember ever seeing mine to be honest. Seen friends and tv shows and such but not mine. So i told her to call the midwife for them to give her the best advice. It is now confirmed that she is in early stages of labor. Im just hoping i dont get asked to go on through and help deliver it cause im having a dam cuppa before i go through!

Am having a very bad friday indeed. Some people just dont deserve to get paid for the piss poor job that they do or the service they are suppose to give.

They certainly dont deserve the oxygen neither and by letting my family and myself down means that i am now placing my health as well as others in unfortunate situations.



Mad and angry just dont cover my emotions right now. Nor does any word in the english dictionary or thesaurus for that matter.

No words for the asshole neither who has me annoyed neither.

A very good day today for my youngest. It has taken my neighbor and myself 5 years now to get my youngest to actually go next door and sit in there house with 3 dogs and 1 cat. He did very well and sat in there home for a good half an hour.



It is very difficult for him to understand that an animal with fur covering their face cant show facial expressions. So when a dog barks in happyness he would view it as anger and a form of attack.

But we have given him time to adjust and slowly after he got use to the neighbors cat last summer and they gaining a puppy at the end of last year we have gradually introduced him every other day the puppy which is growing fast and so now he can except and tolerate the bigger dogs as long as he doesnt have to stroke them. But he was the same with the puppy only a few weeks ago as well as the cat last year.



This will now hopefully open a new door and allow us all to have pet once we move out of house as the landlord unfortunatelly wont allow pets in the home. But one step at a time and need to sort out other problems before a move is on the cards.

Finally got the decorations down and put away.



Thankfully both boys went to school today so i had a morning of me time. Spent it wisely in the book store and picked up a couple of books.

Tomorrow i intend to rest up after i done the hoovering as my knee is swelling up and can feel the muscle stretching and pulling trying to adjust around the swollen bit. It is a little uncomfortable and such but i have anti inflammatory which fingers cross will work a wonder or two over night.



After two nights of little to buggar all sleep im ready to take an early one i hope as long as my youngest does not have a mini meltdown. Not sure if he will choose to have one or not. I dont want to jinx it and say all is well right now as that is when it goes all wrong.

Well it has been 13 years today since i had made the one of the most life changing event of my life.

It was never a regret being with my sons father, my ex. Not all the way at least.

I never regretted being with him all those years just how things turned out in the end.

The decision to end and take on the role being a single parent and be not only a mother but a father as well to my two sons was one i never wanted. I never set out to be a single parent neither to deny my sons what every child should have and that being both parents in their lives but circumstances made it so sadly.

My only regret is that i didnt wait a little later in life to have my sons and have more life experience than what i had back then.

Could have and most definitely would have handled things differently for sure.

Still here though.

Being a parent at times just fuckety sucks!!!!!!!



There I have said it. Its not a case of not wanting to admit to my failings from it. If I balls it on up I try to correct and remember it for next time. But when my youngest has his meltdowns with Autism there is not a bloody thing I can do about it except to ride it on out and wait for the storm to pass. It is not something I can correct fully and can only adjust it slightly and accordingly. Its frustrating at times to just stand back and let the shit fly waiting for it to all settle. It is the only thing I can do.

Shall try for round two tomorrow and hope to progress a little further. But for the rest of the day shit shall just settle were it falls and hopefully he comes out of his foul mood meltdown.

So my youngest was sat down on the sofa just now and once again another of his baby teeth fell out.

He casually holds out his hand and tries to place it in mine.

My stomach feels like it has just done a rough sea ferry trip. Part of parenting i dislike is teeth and anything to do with eyes.

He is all good though sat giggling as if nothing had just happened at all.

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Em0d0LL
20:41 Jan 01 2014

I can handle teeth i cant handle throwing up yuck!!

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So last night started with the mini dram of the neighbors daughter latest boyfriend been rushed into hospital at a new year eve party. He drunk to much alcohol and ended up having an epileptic fit.

So the daughter drags her mother up to the hospital. I told her she was a mug and that he will be expecting every time he self inflicts it on himself. He knows that heavy drinking induces a fit but still does it.

Worse part is she is 8 and half months pregnant with another mans baby who she only split up with about 5 maybe 6 weeks ago. Somethings clearly dont change and she will end up loosing the baby before it has done a whole year in school for the amount of daddies that child will have had on the scene.

Not that often that i say it but the child will be better off in the system than having her as a mother.

She cant go a month without having a man servicing her. The term she is a bike a you can ride her but not own her certainly comes to mind.



Anyway woke up this morning to hearing my youngest talking and in a good mood. My eldest is happy to.

Been a quiet day and is pouring heavily down with rain outside. Going to grab some food soon and finish off cleaning out the kitchen cupboards properly. I like to get that done as soon as possible. Then i can refill up and such properly now that the christmas mad dash is over with.

Kids return back to school on Monday as well so need to tackle that one of getting everything ready and sorted before the weekend sneaks up.